introspective, retrospective & grateful…
May 11, 2008

lil'rinathank God for the blessing of another year in my life.
for the blessings that You give me inspite of my shortcomings… for Your grace & Your mercy & Your unconditional love that abounds always. forgive me Lord for the many times when I have not been pleasing in Your eyes. I pray that in all things You go before me, directing my path to lead me in the direction that You have willed for my life. i know that You put me on this earth for a purpose. i know that everything that has passed (both good & bad) was all a part of Your perfect plan. help me to see Your wisdom even in my darkest hours & to find the will to rejoice in those times because You have never forsaken me. help me to take a moment to profess gratitude even in the littlest things… the air we breathe, the friends we keep the love we share & in the blessings of each & every new day. big'mama - lol!help me Lord to look to You in all things & not to man. i pray that in all things & in every way that You reach out to me, Your voice will resound in my heart so that I can hear You. I thank & praise You Lord. I am nothing without You. I look forward to tomorrow because I know…
Your ways are perfect.
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it’s Mother’s day once again. It’s a bittersweet feeling to have such a day where Mother’s are honored because , I miss my mom more than words can say… sometimes, I feel a little cheated because my mom is no longer here with me. i feel that there are times that i took her for granted because i always believed that a mother’s love is unconditional. i didn’t have today but i knew that i’d always have tomorrow to make it up to her & she would love me just the same. i’m older now (officially another year older today ) & i am walking in her shoes as I raise a child of my own & at times struggling in a path that was seemingly simple when she walked on it. i know she had struggles even if she never voiced them. to be truthful, at times i thought she was weak… because she allowed herself to get buried in her struggles. i believed i was smarter than her because, i could see behind her smile. but i know now, that a forced smile amidst a heavily-burdened heart is the heroic feat of a strong, caring & unselfish soul. i know she’s not with me now because she only needed a few years on earth to gain her wings in heaven.
i miss you mom & i love you more than words can say.

lol!! cheesy!lastly, i am so very blessed by this wonderful son of mine who makes me oh-so proud to be his mommy. thank you Lord for my ‘lil mister’. he is more than enough – he was crafted perfectly in the eyes of a Father who saw the love in two people who never stood a chance the moment his eyes met ours 7 years ago.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers out there. You are beautiful & you are loved!!